Numinous

Being "busy" always makes me feel disconnected. You know that nagging sense of resistance, as if you are swimming against the tide. Almost always when that happens the dominant thought in my mind is rationalizing "how important" whatever I am doing is. Thoughts like, "I must get this done" with the mind racing through an array of "must do's". And the result of it is: that's the moment I am no longer in the flow, no longer connected, but projecting my big task list of post-it notes, work, laundry, errands and all the rest into each moment, racing the clock and hating every minute of it.

It seems like an impossible task to just STOP. Like right now. Stop doing and get above that high demand level of what I expect of myself. And I suspect far too many of us, probably many more than would care to admit, also experience these exact same things.

I am learning how to "shut it off" and stop. The moments I can accomplish that one thing, stopping my mind, somehow make the endless array of "other tasks" so much more doable  and, less stressful.

We are being disconnected from wisdom ...by our so-called "knowledge". Stress, fear, anxiety, depression and burn-out contantly increase thru bombardment of mental information.. We are held in a continual state of "high beta"... That's when we start becoming impatient, aggressive, shortminded... We become imprisoned in our minds.. the left brain mentality equals our limitation and resistance. 

One of the ways I am overcoming my sense of "constant high beta busyness" is through meditation. I know lots of people talk about it, but it always felt to me like something distant, impractical - in other words: not "doable". How could there be time to stop when I can barely keep up with the list of "to-do's" I already have? Well, I found out I was right. There wasn't time. Until I made the time. So I started stealing some. And I am proud of myself for taking "time" that my mind likes to tell me I don't have... stealing time from smack in the middle of some other planned task. It is actually working! So meditation isn't just for the "super spiritual" and ephemeral after all. It is also for coders, construction workers, media managers, writers, estheticians... it can work for everyone and at any time. I am finding out that it is "ok" to take even just a few minutes to consciously disconnect from my busy mind - in order to consciously connect instead to a silent one.

I am sharing a video about this here because it is on point to the subject, and because the speaker is not just saying words. They are speaking from direct experience. It inspires me to continue with stopping my busy mind. I hope it inspires you also today.